DH totally made fun of me when I told him this evening that I was getting messages from the Universe about some of the junk I chose to eat this week. And as I sit here typing my entry he says, "What? I didn't make fun of you! I only mocked you." So, you can see how supported I am in my quest.
Anyhow... I was telling him tonight that I had done some major cheating this week and the Universe was sending me so many signs that I shouldn't be doing it. Yesterday afternoon I went to McDonald's and ordered 3 chocolate chip cookies and 3 oatmeal cookies. When I drove up to the window, I paid and received the goods. I started driving off and realized they didn't give me 1/2 of my order. So, that was my first sign. I dug in and was totally satisfied after that 1st cookie and didn't really want the rest but for some reason I devoured the rest and felt soooo guilty.
But, the guilt didn't stop me from stopping at McDonald's again on the way home from the Braves game that night. I ordered 3 more chocolate chip cookies. But, they only had oatmeal left. Sign #2. And instead of just paying attention to that sign, I gladly took the oatmeal cookies and devoured them all.
So, then today I went to Chick-fil-A (told you I had a bad week of cheating). I ordered a chicken wrap meal but upgraded my drink to a cookies and cream shake. This is my classic sabotage style. I need to get control of myself. Well, Audrey asked me right away for my drink. I already felt guilty for even taking the shake from the server at the window and finally decided to listen to the 3rd sign. So, I drank about 1/4 of it and gave the rest to Audrey.
I'm going to talk about this in my WW meeting tomorrow. I don't really know what I expect from it but I'm hoping there are others that have gone through similar destructive behavior and can give advice or just be supportive.
Sigh. I should have started my post with great news but I'll end with it. I'm down 10 POUNDS since I started WW three weeks ago. I'm happy with the progress already but I do really want to do so much better with my habits than I am. My goal for the coming week is to work out 3 days.
1 comment:
You are doing great! The last time I went to CFA I supersized "cuz I wanted a large Iced Tea"....um I THINK it was the fries I was after. Part of WW with the meetings is discovering these things that are pretty common and learning how to stop them before you go down that road. Isn't it funny how you get mad when you children want your junk food. Anyway, you are doing great!
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